Sorry for being overly dramatic. After a good nights sleep, training, and clarification from admin I'll continue to write.
Admins message was 50% on the dangers of "explicit sex"-stuff, and 50% about how other personal subjects didn't belong in a training log. But after I'd taken some time to think about it and wrote back asking specifically what was okay to write about I got the reply "
Don't write about sex!". So, no more dirty talk, and the log goes on.
I've been thinking a lot about changing my training, about maybe doing S/S everyday with lighter weights and/or taking more long walks, or even do both, S/S+1hour walk 6days a week. I will try to up the frequency of the training to everyday next week and see what happens. Perhaps just doing a long walk and 30 clean&presses with the 32kg on the "light days". Always doing the morning walks.
Eating between 2300kcal-2700kcal a day, average on 2500kcal and try to get at least 200g of protein a day. It's a lot of food when you take away all the junk food and sugar. It's more than 1250kcal (!) in a bag of "swedish fish"-wine gums, my old favorite, and about the same in a pack of cookies.
I mostly eat boiled potatoes, lean meat or fish, cottage cheese,a lot of vegetables, brown rice, lentils, oatmeal, protein shakes and protein pudding. No added sugar like ketchup or jam. I noticed I ate very little fat and have upped the fat percentage with some mackerel, eggs, 20g of mayo with chili on top of my rice and lentils and a little peanut butter in my protein pudding. Counting and weighing everyting... a bit boring..
I've tried eating 5-600 calories less but I end up feeling tired, unmotivated, sad, hungry obviously and having more cravings for sugar and junk food. Eating 2500kcal from my diet I feel full.
Went to see the doctor to get the results from the blood test and she also listened to my heart beat. Everything was "
perfect". Blood sugar, blood fats, iron levels, cholesterol, blood pressure, heart beat etc. I feel really lucky not having diabetes or being "pre-diabetic", not going to loose this opportunity to get my health in order.
Been thinking about those "movie star workouts" you can see on youtube when someone like Chris "Thor" Hemsworth claim to do a heavy weights workout in the morning and a tough cardio workout in the evening and eat about 4000 kcal of healthy food everyday. Feels like I could manage that for a while if I could eat more food. But I also read that while being fat, exercising and feeling "weak and hungry" is just in your mind and you don't need more food than a moderate calorie deficiency diet.
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I thought yesterday I can't let "
someone on the internet" decide how I should train, and feeling a bit of indignant righteousnesses about leading all of google's children astray with my depraved mind and horrific imagery, I went heavy instead of doing "light load" to be obtuse!
15 prying goblet squats with the 40kg
40 One arm swings with the 40kg
20 snatches with a 20kg without pause
80 two handed swings with the 40kg in sets of 10 and then
snatched it once per arm just to prove a point to...someone.... myself I guess...
farmers walk with the 40kg and the 20kg back, maybe 200m.
4 presses per arm in sets of 2
4 bottom up press with the 20kg
20 "rows" with the 40kg,
then did some lighter get-ups. A few with a 24kg, and then some with the 16kg. Those are still heavy when I raise myself on my left leg. But having 50kg of fat around my waist doesn't make them any lighter. 1km slow "recovery walk" before showering (I read an article about it).
I felt good afterwards and still had some "left in the tank", sore shoulders though...