jaku
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On Monday, May 2nd, I was diagnosed with Crohn's disease.
Before my diagnosis, I was trying to gain weight and muscle through hypertrophy training. Results were slow, and I was in a lot of pain due to eating foods that were hurting my body. Other symptoms of the disease affected me as well such as constant fatigue, joint pain and bleeding. I was fighting a losing battle and didn't know it.
After my diagnosis (2 days ago), I've had to cut out 90% of the things that I consume such as red meat, beans, cooked tomatoes, protein powder, dairy, nuts and grains, whole wheat, raw leafy greens, fruit, and other things that contribute to my inflammation.
As far as traditional bulking diets go, they're off the table. As far as meat protein sources, my only option is chicken, which I've never liked or cooked. Egg whites could be another source.
I've lost most of my natural and hard-earned strength thanks to this disease. I'm 130lbs of atrophying muscle mass currently and at constant risk of malnutrition because my body doesn't absorb nutrients properly. It's difficult to meet my protein intake needs with a small appetite and stomach size now. And as the saying goes, you gotta eat big to get big.
With a minimal diet, maybe I should shift my goal from training for hypertrophy (feel-good vibes) to training for strength with minimal programs like S&S. But what holds me back is that I feel like I won't get as good of a physique (and w/ sub-optimal protein intake, it won't matter anyway).
I'm at a crossroads. Being strong and looking good are important for my mental health. I want to look good in the clothes I wear and feel attractive. I feel that being skinny and weak isn't attractive. Maybe it's time to change my beliefs but it's really hard to look at myself in the mirror these days.
Just venting... I've been feeling really down and lost.
Before my diagnosis, I was trying to gain weight and muscle through hypertrophy training. Results were slow, and I was in a lot of pain due to eating foods that were hurting my body. Other symptoms of the disease affected me as well such as constant fatigue, joint pain and bleeding. I was fighting a losing battle and didn't know it.
After my diagnosis (2 days ago), I've had to cut out 90% of the things that I consume such as red meat, beans, cooked tomatoes, protein powder, dairy, nuts and grains, whole wheat, raw leafy greens, fruit, and other things that contribute to my inflammation.
As far as traditional bulking diets go, they're off the table. As far as meat protein sources, my only option is chicken, which I've never liked or cooked. Egg whites could be another source.
I've lost most of my natural and hard-earned strength thanks to this disease. I'm 130lbs of atrophying muscle mass currently and at constant risk of malnutrition because my body doesn't absorb nutrients properly. It's difficult to meet my protein intake needs with a small appetite and stomach size now. And as the saying goes, you gotta eat big to get big.
With a minimal diet, maybe I should shift my goal from training for hypertrophy (feel-good vibes) to training for strength with minimal programs like S&S. But what holds me back is that I feel like I won't get as good of a physique (and w/ sub-optimal protein intake, it won't matter anyway).
I'm at a crossroads. Being strong and looking good are important for my mental health. I want to look good in the clothes I wear and feel attractive. I feel that being skinny and weak isn't attractive. Maybe it's time to change my beliefs but it's really hard to look at myself in the mirror these days.
Just venting... I've been feeling really down and lost.
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